There is the question: Why am I here? What is my purpose?
But we like to avoid it, cause it seams pointless to ask. Still if we avoid it, we end up searching for the appreciation on the outside. We are looking for someone to give us a sense of worthiness to be here. A feeling of being appreciated, so we know we do something good. Someone appreciates what we do or what we are.
But what about all those moments when we feel worthless, just not appreciated? Do we always need someone from the outside to fulfill our need?
What would the inner wisdom say? That which fills us up, our divine essence? The source of life? In my perception the truth is:
If you are here, than because there is a meaning for you to be here.
And that meaning is always from the loving source. There is no punishment apart from the one we chose and create ourselves. But there is also no secondary satisfaction of people telling us how wonderful we are. There is only the true satisfaction of being alive, like you see in a small child. There is love to be experienced, there is joy to be lived. There is so many gifts in every day, in every moment.
It’s like there are two sources to chose from: one is the outside source that will give us momentary feelings of appreciation on the superficial level and that work like a drug, we want to repeat the experience, cause it felt so good to plaster up our feelings of worthlessness and not being appreciated.
The other source, is the real source, the divine essence. When the divine essence fills our hunger for feeling worthy and wanted, it is like shining light onto the connection, making us connect with the source and therefor knowing that it is impossible to be worthless. It is impossible to be unappreciated. You are here, so you are given the gift of live. And even if one day it is taken, it’s not because you are not worthy of live, but because you gonna go home to have a rest and a chance to change your outfit if you chose to 🙂
But we are also here to remind each other of our significance. It is totally wonderful and nice to give each other appreciation and gratitude. Sometimes it might even feel overwhelming if we do get the so wanted feeling of appreciation. So again it only works in connection with our divine source. We can pass on this gratitude to source, as we come from source and all gratitude received can be passed on. Just as all longing for appreciation and feeling worthy can be passed on.
I am here, I have a purpose. I have the choice to play and find out, if have the opportunity to experiment. I have my emotions to show me the way.
Following my happiness and unmasking the obstacles on the way.
When you feel overwhelmed with feeling of worthlessness and longing for appreciation, sit with it, give it space, breath into it, welcome it. It is not possible to change this just with the thoughts. It needs to sink in and that generally needs an opening.
As always, feel free to get in touch to get some guidance and company for the way, I am happy to facilitate.
Have a blessed day.