I feel I need to write something today to stay sane. I am trapped in my own resistance. Last night I read the text message about having to wear face masks for every shop now. It just feels so wrong to me and I have a huge resistance.
I’ve been playing the film forward and backward in my head, sang a song about it, cried and went for a walk, read through inspiring messages on the internet, got some cuddles and yes…..
Slowly but surely it is getting better. Why?
Because nothing stays as it is if you let it be. I even imagine myself having fun designing beautiful masks. Whatever those in charged of rules decide to do with the laws, I can’t stop them and so I wont even waste my energy in this. I trust that life itself (or we can call it GOD for those who dare 😉 will bring the changes we need.
I can do my part, which seams small, but better doing what I do than trying to do tasks that are pointless and just a waste of time. I can stay trusting in love and connection, unity, freedom and peace.
Nothing can take love away from me, even if I hang on the cross, even if this world turns into a place of total control where everyone is obliged to be chipped and controlled for any worldly things. And either you get back to your dreams and follow your heart and you don’t worry about this is to come or you get worried about it and have the pain even before it’s manifested.
I decided to spend my energy on manifesting the beauty we all long for in our hearts.
I realise I have to give up resistance and agree with that what is. Not in a blind mode of desensitized feelings, but in a present mode. With consciousness of my fear and the wish to control what is to happen. I chose to follow the faith in my heart that says, go on nothing unreal lasts forever and everything playing big at one moment will be small another time.
I chose to walk with my resistance and embrace it, embrace myself and know that I need this process. And that this is the work I am doing right now to improve things.